Memory is too good

Confession is to reveal a sin.
But I dont think this is a sin.
So this is .. information no one else know.

This is the ting, lately I have experienced that my memory is out of order, that I have trouble remembering stuff like what I did. I have blanchs and have to push it to try to remember something. I have thought about many reasons why this accurs vitamin deficiency, maybe it wasnt that important to remember, habits. This is the recent stuff but..
... its not only the recent memorys or the recent stuff I did, it goes far back, I've started to notice that now. Not every memory, just some, not very special but still a memory worth keeping.
In the ones that happened a long time ago I put dreams I've dreamt in the memory, so the memory changes and confuses me.The memory I go thru in my head seems real but feels like something else, wrong, fake. Somewhere I can tell that its fake, I think, I belive in logic so eventually I see which parts are fake.
It doesnt hurt me or anything, it just scares me.
And It's not like I don't remember the memory, just that the dreams I have fill in stuff.
I probobly should mention that it's not the memory in itself, the persons and the event, but the places and how we got there. Hard to explain.
When I dream dreams I can remember, there often very long and very detailed to the max. I really mean that, and some dreams even repeat itself so they get very clear to me. Just like a memory. Some dreams are extreme and ficition, but mostly they are normal and possible stuff everybody can do.
As I said, this doesnt hurt me, changes the memory or anything like that, it's just a thing right now I guess, it just startles me.



Ooo, nu är nya Prison break, family guy och Simpsons nere.
Screw you guys.
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"Many a man fails as an original thinker simply because his memory is too good"
Friedrich Nietzshe