If you want me in a complete love-mode just put on Moulin Rouge, I'll vanish tbh. I'm up alone and having that amazing movie on Qs computer while grinding. I just get so mesmerized, I get this huge feeling inside my chest, my body loves this movie. And Ewan McGregor singing is always a given plus, Nicole for that matter aswell. This movie is so charming and fun.
I've gotten a job, it wasnt as hard as I thought. It's insanly good money and I'm really looking forward to it. I now work at The Phone House :)
And I've come to realize I've never liked a boy as much as I do with you.
Eudai
4/10/2008
Eudai
"Your not the one to blame, I'm the one that pushed you away.."
Right now, I'm feeling so wierd, it feels like I'm fooling myself. I'm having this amazing time with my boyfriend, I'm so happy, yet when i think of what awaits me I turn sad. I know I can do this, 10 weeks, thats it, then I'm free. I'm gonna start working again.
I just .. just cant handle more of this. It was too much, and there are stuff I want more right now than school. I dont want to go down again, dont want to get depressed again, it took too much energy from me, from Q. Whats growling inside of me is that everyone was SO proud of that I was the only one in the family, hole family, the only grandchild that would go to Collage. And now, it feels like I've let them down. And that kinda hurts.
Right now, I'm feeling so wierd, it feels like I'm fooling myself. I'm having this amazing time with my boyfriend, I'm so happy, yet when i think of what awaits me I turn sad. I know I can do this, 10 weeks, thats it, then I'm free. I'm gonna start working again.
I just .. just cant handle more of this. It was too much, and there are stuff I want more right now than school. I dont want to go down again, dont want to get depressed again, it took too much energy from me, from Q. Whats growling inside of me is that everyone was SO proud of that I was the only one in the family, hole family, the only grandchild that would go to Collage. And now, it feels like I've let them down. And that kinda hurts.
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