My saturday, the 6th, was really awful. I came home to my parents after eating a kickass dinner with my mother and my boyfriend and it doesnt take long before hell breaks lose.
I pass out, my pulse drops to nonexisting, my breathing stops and I come back to life after a few seconds. But I pass out one more time, in the mean time Dag calls the ambulanse and they rush thru the town to help me.
When they come I had woken yet again but started to hyperventilate, cry and panic. They take my bloodsugar to see so its not diabetesrelated. Since all Dag can say is "She's a diabetic!!!", it was really cute, but unrelivant at that time.
The ambulanse people establish that; "Oh fuck, let's take her in."
Well no shit.
The ride thru town is a huge blurr, but well at the ER they push the maxdose on morfine in me, and other stuff that could tranquilize a elephant.
But I don't stop.
And I lay there for up towards 6hours, pumped, hyperventilating and the ER establish that; "Ohhh shit, we don't know what this is, so we send you away from us so you stop being out problem! Yey for us!"
They send me to the psykwards where the doc doesnt get why I'm there because I'm clear in my head and it's really unnecessary for me to be in his office.
After that I colapse and stop hyperventilate from shere exhaustion.
Not from the drogs, not from the doctors, from exhaustion.
They did nothing.
Yey for Swedish healthcare sometimes.
But there was one of the nurses there, who was a real rock, I can't remember what she looked like, what her name was, but yeeses did she help me just by beeing there and talking to me.
These past days have been really rough and I feel like shit.
I hope everything gets better soon.
Called the hospital bout my former broken wrist aswell, the surgery isnt gonna happen any time soon, tops 2months maybe.
Oh well.
So life goes on ..
6/14/2009
6/03/2009
Natural Born Leader
Omg, the good comments just keep rolling in, not about how I do in school and my grades, but how I AM as a person, it's just such a booster I'm gonna start laughing and crying.
This time it was my Active Democracy teacher (n yes that is a ligit class and cours), he told me my grade and said that I was such a greater leader, I can make people do what I want (in a good way), make them see what's good, explain things so everyone gets it and that's seriously (he said) a good quality in a human beeing. He was specially impressed of my leading skills.
Thou he was curious of why I don't take more place, show myself and how smart I am more.
I explained that thats something that has been coming more and more, that I wanted to make room for others to shine and learn, I don't want to step on anyones toes.
He almost got angry telling me that I needed to do that to achieve some steps in life, was really interesting talking to him. This past term I've been really looking up to him, enjoying his classes and his intelligence, for him to say that to me, it was really cool.
And plus, I got kickass grade from him.
This time it was my Active Democracy teacher (n yes that is a ligit class and cours), he told me my grade and said that I was such a greater leader, I can make people do what I want (in a good way), make them see what's good, explain things so everyone gets it and that's seriously (he said) a good quality in a human beeing. He was specially impressed of my leading skills.
Thou he was curious of why I don't take more place, show myself and how smart I am more.
I explained that thats something that has been coming more and more, that I wanted to make room for others to shine and learn, I don't want to step on anyones toes.
He almost got angry telling me that I needed to do that to achieve some steps in life, was really interesting talking to him. This past term I've been really looking up to him, enjoying his classes and his intelligence, for him to say that to me, it was really cool.
And plus, I got kickass grade from him.
6/02/2009
YUMMI
Time for one of those long updates again I guess!
Still, I'm gonna try and keep it short . . . .
The last week, between monday and wednesday I was at the hospital. No worries, it was a kind of course, talking about diabetes. It was really the best thing that's happend in a while, when it comes to me and my health.
3 days me and 8 other people sat listening to doctors, nurses, nutritionist, psychologist and even top researcher!
I was the youngest of them all, and yet the one who have had the longest relationship with the illness.
Lots of good things really happend, but to keep it short I got new improved means, loads of guide and tips.
And I even got to know how I got diabetes, which is a hole new discovery, and I'm going to tell you some other time.
I'm really doing what I've wanted to do the last year or so, I'm starting to feel so much fresher and alert, it's really amazing. Who would have known that I could eat knekkebroot!
The nurses there ware really taking care of me, since I've transfered from the kiddies division to adult I've kinda slipped between chairs and was lost in the archivies. I hav'nt done the routine cheak-ups so they really, no kidding, threw me out of the room to go and do them, they felt sorry for the position I was in. All better now thou!
The past weeks been really stressful, like always, everything is pushed to the end and I got alot of school to take care of, but then again, it all ends tomorrow!
And it is worth it, I've applyed for the university here in Malmo, and in Lund, so let's see where I end up. My grade is looking awfly good with all the VG-MVGs I've gotten from Komvux ;).
Funny thing happend today, did the last thing for my English class and afterwards when I talked to my teacher about my grade she asked me what I was planning on doing to the fall.
Told her I was going to the university and that I've applyed for 3 things.
Anyway, my 3d option which is just something I took because I had a sudden rush for it, is a english teacher for the upper highschool students.
She said that I was one of the most talented english students she's seen in a while and that I had every characteristic that a good teacher needs, and that Sweden really needed more of those. I got really flattered.
Btw, not telling a soul what my first two desires are for the university apply, lets just see how far it goes ;).
Gonna continue studying for the last exam and sip on my beer.
See ya laters.
Still, I'm gonna try and keep it short . . . .
The last week, between monday and wednesday I was at the hospital. No worries, it was a kind of course, talking about diabetes. It was really the best thing that's happend in a while, when it comes to me and my health.
3 days me and 8 other people sat listening to doctors, nurses, nutritionist, psychologist and even top researcher!
I was the youngest of them all, and yet the one who have had the longest relationship with the illness.
Lots of good things really happend, but to keep it short I got new improved means, loads of guide and tips.
And I even got to know how I got diabetes, which is a hole new discovery, and I'm going to tell you some other time.
I'm really doing what I've wanted to do the last year or so, I'm starting to feel so much fresher and alert, it's really amazing. Who would have known that I could eat knekkebroot!
The nurses there ware really taking care of me, since I've transfered from the kiddies division to adult I've kinda slipped between chairs and was lost in the archivies. I hav'nt done the routine cheak-ups so they really, no kidding, threw me out of the room to go and do them, they felt sorry for the position I was in. All better now thou!
The past weeks been really stressful, like always, everything is pushed to the end and I got alot of school to take care of, but then again, it all ends tomorrow!
And it is worth it, I've applyed for the university here in Malmo, and in Lund, so let's see where I end up. My grade is looking awfly good with all the VG-MVGs I've gotten from Komvux ;).
Funny thing happend today, did the last thing for my English class and afterwards when I talked to my teacher about my grade she asked me what I was planning on doing to the fall.
Told her I was going to the university and that I've applyed for 3 things.
Anyway, my 3d option which is just something I took because I had a sudden rush for it, is a english teacher for the upper highschool students.
She said that I was one of the most talented english students she's seen in a while and that I had every characteristic that a good teacher needs, and that Sweden really needed more of those. I got really flattered.
Btw, not telling a soul what my first two desires are for the university apply, lets just see how far it goes ;).
Gonna continue studying for the last exam and sip on my beer.
See ya laters.
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