Dont forget me.

I don't even know where to begin, right now I feel broken and lost and stupid. Was it a impulsive move from me? Was it right? People that love me told me that it is for the best, that it was a good move from my half. But breaking up with someone that hasnt done anything wrong, and still is the one you love, after 1½ year, just seems wierd, even in my eyes. But I need this, this weekend I got so scared, I felt so lost, I need to be alone. Ive had 2 strong relationships where I adapted to what the guy liked, and for every time I did that, I lost a piece of me. My mom and my best friend keep saying that they are proud of me, but the feelings I keep feeling now are just taring me apart. I miss him so much, and I love him so much. But I think I love me more, and how am I suppost to compleatly give myself to someone, my heart, if I dont even know what it beholds. I just need a few months, I think. I just hope I'm not going to be forgotten.


Edit:
No turning back now.
Even if I wish I could.
Things hurt too much right now, I didnt just break his heart, I broke my own. What good can seriously come out of that? How stupid can one be.