.. maybe ok

One day at the time, just one day at the time.
I tend to fill my days with everything, so I wont have to think that much, just want to breathe right now.
But today was hard, I had planned to go spend a day at the hospital but overslept and got fucked over. So I was stuck here doing nothing, just waiting the clock out. Luckely my friends saved me from that later on, but after thinking, and thinking, for like 3 hours straight, i just felt exhausted. Logging on msn to talk to people didnt help really either.
I put a smile on my face, but im so cold inside, only my best friend see it, and she looks me straight in the eyes, right thru my soul, she understands and she doesnt do anything, she smiles and just carrys on. Exactly what I need, dont try and give me your shoulder or say it will be fine. She's just awesome right now when I feel like the earths scum.
Lots of stuff I want to write down but I'm not going to, not now atleast.
Just informing peeps that I'm alive, and ..